Sunday, May 31, 2009

*yawns* ... *stretches* ... *curls up in bed*

On this oh so groggy Sunday morning, what else is there to do but post a picture of satanic gummy bears and a poem about prostitution?

Ironic Poem About Prostitution

by George Orwell

When I was young and had no sense
In far-off Mandalay
I lost my heart to a Burmese girl
As lovely as the day.

Her skin was gold, her hair was jet,
Her teeth were ivory;
I said, "for twenty silver pieces,
Maiden, sleep with me".

She looked at me, so pure, so sad,
The loveliest thing alive,
And in her lisping, virgin voice,
Stood out for twenty-five.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

We stray

The news of tomorrow isn’t far away,
So let’s dose do on the sidelines
until our fate arrives.

The dictionary says our futures are blown by just us,
But through the glass you joke differently.

A separate taste from that which I know-
The pugnacious smell of attempted approval:
through that joint lost smile and our refusal to be beaten,
or so it seems our disconnect.

Inspired by fear,
United in conflict we stand.

We stand-
together, laying, separate, and then back again.
Too apart for my skin!

Too apart for my skin, so I dance.
An intermission to our trying battle- the hope of life’s supposed promise-
A pact of success is something He hasn’t whispered as of late, but I journey on
as you sit there through the glass.

Smile. Smile. Smile.
We stand-

laying, separate,
and then back again.

Too apart for my skin!

Are you still dancing?

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Picture Contest, omg.

Best caption to the picture wins, uhm... a prize. Sure, yea.. a prize.
Video up on my channel, as well :-) MWAHAHA

Sunday, May 17, 2009


The definition of "Pwn" or "Pown" as written in Urban Dictionary is, "An act of dominating an opponent."

As I went to twitter "I'm going to pwn life" I decided to first look up the various spellings and definitions of pwned. When I came across the prior definition, I began to have second thoughts about the tweet.

Is life actually an opponent? Is life actually working against us? While I just meant it in a facetious way, to say such a statement might very well be completely inaccurate.

I think the answer to the question lies within each individuals personal beliefs. Is "life" a higher being, such as God controlling and/or using situations and occurrences for ultimate benefit? or Is "life" just the decisions we make controlled by us and only us?

Despite differences in faith and morale from person to person"I'm going to pwn life" is just another way of saying life doesn't always go as planned... and when that happens, there isn't much you can do about it besides relax and try your best. Do your best to succeed at reaching that goal you're attempting to achieve whilst going with the flow of the hardships that may and most likely will come along.

Lol, gosh... I'm a hippie minus all the drugs and not showering. Plus, I'm a Christian. Hippies can like God, right? Dude, anyone can be a hippie. How cool is that? Freaking Hindu hippies, Jewish hippies, Buddhist hippies. Let's all go pick some flowers.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Forever, definitions

Relationship |riˈlā sh ənˌ sh ip| noun
The way in which two or more concepts, objects, or people are connected, or the state of being connected
• the state of being connected by blood or marriage
• the way in which two or more people or organizations regard and behave toward each other
• an emotional and sexual association between two people

This is the time of year which finals are ending. People you went to high school with are strolling around town, and cups of coffee are being shared by old friends. It's the time to catch up with people you used to see on a daily basis. If you so choose to not withdraw at least bits of information about yourself to them, then you are left with awkward bouts of silence. So you are in a way, forced to share... if you would like to avoid that silence, at least. Perhaps one could always distract from the topic, however that is not my forte.

It seems as though the definition of what a friend is comes into play in most of these conversations I've been having lately.

Nowhere in that definition does it say, "defined by convenience," which most of our relationships are. Relationships tend to be defined by proximity and ease. Are we all supposed to find the people we connect with within a 10 mile radius?

When I think "friend" a great deal of the people that come to mind are those I've meet through Youtube. Therefore, most of my friends are not within that 10 mile radius.

This makes my relationships certainly harder, but perhaps just as or possibly more rewarding. There comes the need for more effort in order to keep in touch, more want, and then more fun when you do get to spend time with that person that you've built such an interesting relationship with.

I'm not sure if it's a bad thing or a good thing that I'm so willing to have friendships that take place outside that normal proximity, but I know it most definitely makes life just as interesting as it is hard.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

I don't know what the title should be.

There's no reason to escape,
so I'm breathing in the new.

Despite our minds weak,
these hearts beat strong.

we ascend.
we ascend.
we ascend-

Into the sky that looks too blue,
with the birds that look too free.

Ignoring the doors that were once locked,
and the windows that were once shut.

Ignoring the blinds we set,
and the heat we withstood-

we descend.
we descend.
we descend-

Into hope.
Into fear.
Into this unknown familiarity.

Our busy minds cast aside,
we choose to follow that which keeps us.

That which keeps us
-in hope
-in fear
-in this unknown familiarity, soon to be further explored.

And then I started to get ready for work and lost inspiration. lol, hopefully I think of an ending some time later. Until then my avid blog readers (haha), you will just have to wait.

On another note...
I think I want to accomplish these things before the summer is up-

1- re-do my room and have a garage sale for all of the CRAP I'm going to get rid of
2-see what my schedule is going to be like next year and If I'll have time for both sanity and a job
3-keep better track of money
3 1/2- become a whore on the weekends or possibly a paperboy if I am so desperate for crack *cough cough* I mean, uh, money.
4- Actually follow through with my whole "less TV, internet, escapism and becoming a typical American lazy bum, etc." thing
5- Relearn how to freaking look good since my job has put my back in the style of high school (oi freaking vey) at least I'm not sporting juicy sweats and uggs. Maybe separately, but never together (lyke omg, ew)

and I'm sure there are more things which need to be put on my epic list, but some shall not be mentioned here and some I just can't think of right now.

Now it's time for work. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers. My life is all over the place. Happy, but all over the place. Guidance, hooray!

Friday, May 1, 2009

I've been blogging every day, haven't I?

I found this on stumble. I want my imagination back.