Sunday, June 19, 2011

The moral flexibility of a 20-something

We all dive into this lifestyle head first. work hard. party hard and often. Everyone condones this behavior with the secured knowledge that one day it will come to an end. At that point, whenever it comes, you will be a maturing adult. It seems as though with this so cliche college lifestyle (or maybe just richmond lifestyle) comes a moral flexibility. We all jump on the roller-coaster for the ups and downs of experimentation. We fuck up and we learn. Wash and repeat. Over the past year or so of living in Richmond I've encountered too many liars and cheaters to count. Does being a 20 something also require you to test yourself and others in this way? Will people who cheat and lie in their 20s one day say o.k... I've grown up now. I guess to some cheating and lying may be just the same as experimenting with drugs and drinking maybe just a little too often... This time is like a rumspringa for us all. I'd like to have my rumspringa minus the dishonesty and infidelity. But hey, maybe that's just me.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

My lovely, shitty bike.

It wasn't that great of a bike. Just a Mercier from Bikesdirect. Though, it did cost upwards of 400 with shipping, tax, putting it together, and the u-lock. My first bike was even shittier and cost around the same thing. A freaking U-district Torker. I loathed that bike.

I found the bike gone yesterday. I was on my way to class, ready for a quick ride under the hot summer sun. Nothing like that humid, richmond air! I zoomed out the back door and my stomach sank. The gate was open and my bike was gone.

I'm not sure why I'm so, so bothered by it, though. Maybe it's the sinking feeling I felt when I saw the gate open and my bike missing. It's one of those situations you can imagine happening over and over, but never expect when it actually happens. Maybe it's the fact that my roommate is too stubborn to accept the responsibility, despite admitting to leaving the gate open.

Either way my lovely, shitty bike is gone.

I later dulled the pain with cheap wine and the same old richmond adventures. Luckily, the party was close and everyone was walking.

My bike is the way I go to work. It's the way I get around Richmond for errands, partying, seeing friends. My bike is one of the best summer accessories. And now it's gone. And the person to blame can't be objective enough to understand all of this.

So, I'm out 400 something bucks and it's time to invest in a new bike. and I will worship it. Because apparently... my bike meant a lot to me.

Monday, April 25, 2011


I just had a brain revolution.

I was asking people about this at work the other day. I feel like music just keeps on getting (by and large) worse and worse. Or rather, more similar and more similar. I could stand the (what I call) "radio hip hop" a year or two ago, but now it all just sounds the same. Even one of my favorite artists, Eminem, is using the same formula for his songs and songs that he cameos. Yell-rap to the same beat and then an evocative and beautifully shrilling voice sings the chorus (most likely female).

I was perusing youtube when I came across this video of Nirvana interviews.

Kurt says, "In the late 70s, it's like major record labels were singing punk bands by just shortly after, like most punk bands first gigs. You know, punk bands would start, play their first gig, you know and they would be signed to a major label right away, you know. just because it's a trend right now. and that just proves that their are a lot of old school dinosaurs in the record industry still that need to be weeded out."

But is that true? In marketing 101 you learn that it is the business managers' entire job to cater to the consumer. What the consumer wants, the consumer gets. This is called consumer-based marketing. While many companies will not go by this ideal, in the perfect world, this is what we would have. An series of diverse industries that are catered to our specific needs- not their greedy money goals.

So is it in fact at the fault of the "dinosaurs in the record industry" that there was a search for the "next Nirvana" in the 90's? I don't know. I don't think so. That's what the people were demanding. Audiences LOVED Nirvana like no other band had been loved for decades. So those old dinosaurs wanted to find another hit just like them- for us, and of course... mostly for the money.

So when you have these imperfect ideals battling with each other within the industries of bureaucracy and red tape that "cater" to us. It is up to the ARTIST to create amazing, new boundary-breaking music. It is up to every creative to create things that scare the hell out of their managers. It's when you start using the same formula that things get stale. And my oh my things are getting stale around here, folks.

Have the boundaries been broken lately? Maybe we've fallen into a lull. A creative gravestone. That next movement is probably just under my nose. We just haven't detected it yet. Or maybe it isn't.

Monday, April 18, 2011

The bonus of actually taking part in social media

One thing I really miss about producing youtube videos regularly and "tweeting" is the fast way you catch onto new websites. The only reason why I knew about Twitter, Tumblr, Dailybooth, etc. first was because of the online community I was apart of.

Without that community I feel like the rest of the world just jumping onto the bandwagon at the very end of its life. Y'all still in the youtube world out there are already on some other bandwagon we don't even know about yet.

Clue me in.

Friday, April 15, 2011


We live in a car-dominated society here in America. That's not the case elsewhere, however.

We have as much right to be on the road as you do. So, please share it. Bikes are held by the same traffic laws that cars are. While many bikers do not follow all of these laws, neither do all cars.

While minding my own business riding my bike on the side of the road as I am supposed to- I am constantly beeped at. For what reason? This is my mode of transportation.

One complaint I have is not signaling. It's incredibly dangerous for other cars around you, but also for the bikers beside you! If we are riding on the right side of the road and you turn without signaling- we could VERY easily be killed... just because you didn't feel like turning on your blinker.

Pedestrians crossing the road while you are zooming on your bike is another beef I have, but many many people wait and It's always INCREDIBLY appreciated.

boarder line is- share the road. if you respect me, I'll respect you.

-City of Richmond Biker

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Morning contemplations

Those first few thoughts just before you actually rise. Mid sleep and awake.

This morning my bedside contemplations were about social media... again. I thought- My inner monologue is some mash up of Bernard Black and Mark Corrigan, while my outer appearance is probably more akin to Moss' (seemingly) clueless exuberance and Roys' cynicism.

I then thought.. Yes. Yes, the title of that Tumblr post would be... "I watch too much british television."

I think the bigger problem is that I'm dreaming about social media and relating with fictional characters. I'd like to read up on some psychological studies on self-deprecating humor and the masses love and resonation with Liz Lemon.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Summer Goal: reduce time spent on the computer and intern3t

Facebook. click. Youtube. click. Gmail. click. VCU Gmail. click. VCU Blackboard. click. Dailybooth. click.

and before you realize it you've spent the past 45 minutes staring blankly at your computer screen, scrolling over the same pages again and again waiting for something to happen.

What has the internet done to us?

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Flat feet barbies

They were always lame because they couldn't wear the pretty heels the other barbies came with.

Monday, February 7, 2011

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Music on bad mornings

Levels of "bad" are all relative. That sounds stupid, but that's how I cope most of my problems. Everything can be laughed at.

I guess there's a lot on my mind because I dreamt about capturing three rabid, fluffy dogs, on a roof top last night. It was night time and someone was watching me from an adjacent roof. After a lot of chasing I finally caught 2 of the dogs and tied them up with leashes to the railing. I didn't have another leash for the third so I sat on it and contained its face with a catchers mask that an umpire would wear in baseball. After awhile of the dog thrashing its face around trying to escape, it said in a human voice something along the lines of- "You know I'm going to make your life a living hell now, right?" And I just kept on holding the mask until this girl who was watching me returned with another leash.

I just woke up thinking... "What??"

It's my second kind of Blahhhhrggg morning, but It's all relative... I listened to Mumford & Sons, Little Lion Man and Heaven by The Cure. Good music seems to absorb any kind of badness that's being touched by its sound. The bad morning seems to kind of sit there quietly tamed by the incredibly simple beauty of playing the right song at the right time.

Monday, January 24, 2011

Day O' Valentines

People always seem to have incredibly firm views on Valentine's Day. People either love it to death or think it's the epitome of consumerism. I've never had a set opinion. I think it's a nice holiday for people in all kinds of relationships to go the extra mile and show a little appreciation for each other. It's also just a silly, made up holiday.

Television shows, movies, and girly girls... they all make a huge deal over this holiday. But all it ends up being is just. another. day.

Valentine's Day is on a Monday this year. And maybe that makes the "holiday" that much more special. Maybe it should show us that just because it's any other Monday, we should be showing the lovely people around us just how lovely we think they are.

In Richmond, Valentine's day passes just like any other day of the week.

I think I'll crack open the bottle of red I got in the Golan heights of Israel. Maybe I'll cook some chicken and top it off with the orange olive oil I got there, as well. I don't think I'd have it any other way. So however you choose to spend the holiday... cheers to you!

Happy Almost Just Another Day So You Shouldn't Freak Out About It/Valentine's Day.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Happy 1 year anniversary, Richmond!

As I was driving back to Richmond today I realized that I've officially lived here for a year now! It's been a wild year and I'm ready for whatever the next few are going to look like.

Happy Anniversary, Richmond <3

Saturday, January 1, 2011

What happens in 2010 stays in 2010

Reflective shit and all that-

I'd like to spill out a blog of lovely and crazy things that happened in 2010. I'd like to write of the all of the things I hope and wish to happen in 2011. Here's one thing that has changed over the past year though- I'd way rather hold out to have that conversation with someone in person rather than have it be anonymously read here. I'd like to share these things with someone who is genuine and honest. I've gained the patience to wait for the people I can do that with.

I will say this though... I have one wish for 2011 and one resolution for 2011. Whether or not they both come true is completely up to me and me alone. That's going to be the best part of 2011. How my year goes Is up to me.

Happy new year.